sigh...so in the end, i didnt get 3.73 and instead managed to hang on to 3.69 by just a tiny-weeny bit...my maths was pathetic, my history was average, my chem was horrifying and my bio was way way way way way under my expectations(which aint very high to be honest)..
k,so we start the day with maths..i had hoped to at least get one 4.0 from maths but, i got none!!damn frustrating...i really really feel damn disappointed...careless mistakes here, careless mistakes there and all of my marks went missing...in...action....im really really disappointed at my maths...when i first walked into RI, i had this vision of defying anyone who said that maths is hard and that getting 70 odd % is really good...well, i did manage that a number of times in these 4 years, but to be honest, this EOYS, i really screwed up big time
then we have history...my next best hope for a 4.0...i missed it by one percent and i am really disappointed at it...my china question went okay, got a 17/20...nothing to be proud of but the comment that it was a refreshing point of view...then i got only a 15/20 for the hitler question...guessed i aint great at doing source-based, but i do feel that i have learnt quite a lot from today's history...at least i know how to conclude now...still wondering if i should take econs or history for RJ(no way im going to call it RI)...well, on the looks of things, its probably 40% history, 40% econs and 20% china studies...
then we have chemistry...granted, i am in the top 5(?) in my class for chemistry EOYS, but hey, 63/80 is nothing to shout about...i was near perfect for the MCQ, a 27/30 is probably pretty fantastic, but i totally died in section B...guessed the culprit? carelessness...again...sigh....if i wanna be a doctor, i guess i will have to work on solving this problem on carelessness..god knows how many marks this problem has caused me...i am really really disappointed...
lastly, bio...i was expecting at least a 70/100 for bio, but it did not come to me...instead, i got a poor 62/100, easily the worst result for this year's EOYs...ok, some people might say to me that 60 is the average of our batch and that to get above 60 is pretty decent...but hey, im not your average joe or wadeva...i dunt aim for the average, i aim for the high flyers...on section B alone, i lost at least 15 marks to carelessness...well, lets see how these 15 marks come about...i forgot an arrow, i forgot to label my inter neuron...so that cost me at least 2 marks...i forgot involuntary, that cost me one mark, i forgot to mention the pancreas detecting the increase in glucose and increases the insulin concentration, another one mark, i totally forgot everything about pure sugars and carbohydrates, that was 2 marks, i totally screwed up my homeostasis question...vasodilations and vasoconstrictions cost me 3 marks, no reference to data cost me 1 mark and an inability to read the graph cost me another mark...i forgot to describe the adaptive advantages, another 2 marks...i stated ONE invalid indicator, one mark gone...i forgot the function of nitrogen in amino acid making, one mark gone...i forgot the differences in the process of antisense RNA and RNAi, 2 marks gone...i forgot wads an antigen...one mark gone...i did not describe the memory lymphocytes correctly...one mark gone..and i did not have time to finish the last question...so 2 marks gone...so in total, thats about...21 marks...okay, plus minus 3 marks,i should have gotten AT LEAST 18 more marks...and thats not including my MCQ screw ups...WAKE UP DAVID ZHAO...YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO SCORE HIGH, BUT YOU ARE NOT DOING SO!!!OTHERS HAVE IMPROVED, BUT YOU HAVENT...YOU ARE SO FREAKING FAR BEHIND...WAKE UP!!...
i really do hope that i am able to make this disappointing experience the turning point in my life...
